Crazy!

The morning has been pretty crazy for me...& its barely 4:30 am LOL! Well just to let all of you people know, I had a great time today!

Basically I sneaked out of my mom's to go meet up with a guy I met on myspace like 2 days ago. Its totally insane & not me at all but for some reason I had a feeling that I had to do it. I made a dummy me on the couch bed & prepared my things. So around 12:40am Tommy boy called me from the gas station pay phone to tell me that he was there & to go to the station.

I was so nervous sneaking out! I mean, I've sneaked out before but never in the middle of the night you know? So I tried oh so quietly to open both doors so that I wouldn't get caught in the act. Success! & as soon as I closed the doors I made a run for it! I was that freaked out!

Then as I ran closer I finally got a good look of Tommy boy in the flesh...& I've gotta say, hes not too bad for an old guy(26) LOL. So we said our basic greetings & then we were off in his manual transmission CRX.

Immediately I was impressed with the car & the fact that it was stick shift. Then we had our lil small chats & I mentioned that I need to be dropped off at the side of the complex.

We arrived at his house. Of course we had to sneak inside quietly into his room & so we did. Then we were watching a bit of anime when at one point his dad opened the door & I instinctively covered myself with Tommy boy's blanket to disguise myself! I don't think worked but Tommy boy reassured me that things will be fine.

The TV eventually got boring so we decided to cuddle up a bit. It felt really nice. I haven't been held in so long I have almost forgotten what it was like...the warmth & closeness of it all. & then the kiss.I swear it felt like magic! Nothing like my very 1st kiss but still pretty nice. All he did was hold me & kiss me...I never felt so needed. Not in a long time.

Then we did the nasty.

After that we just cuddled up again. Him just moving his hands up & down my bare while I held him close; I swear I never wanted to leave. But we both knew I had to so we just enjoyed what was left of our time in sweet warm bliss.

That's when I told him that I had forgotten his name(LOL). I pretty much killed the moment right there & then he reminded me & we were back in the moment again. That's when he called me his "Happy Meal" because I'm happy & I make him happy.

Once time was growing thin, we started to head out for my mom's. We got to his car & it didn't start up. He got out & tried pushing it & then running back in to shift but nothing. He attempted this for at least another 3 times until finally he asked me to get out & help him push the car. So I did & it finally started.

He explained to me that manual car batts die much faster when you don't drive them regularly & that what was occurring. Then we just sang along to Weezer.

When we finally arrived, we said our goodbyes & he gave me a small lil kiss. Then I sneaked back into my mom's & here I am!

I don't know what will become of this but what I do know is that I don't regret a thing about it. I don't expect him to be my boyfriend now or commit himself to only me but I don't know...

I just don't know if I feel for him. If he feels for me! But all I know is that I'm not ready & just thinking about being in a relationship totally scares me!

I guess its because I'm still waiting for HIM. The only man I have ever truly respected. & honestly, I don't want anyone else. I will have my share of love affairs but HE will be the one I am willing to commit to. HE deserves nothing less.

HES my Andy =)